The beginning of transformation

As noted previously, I've been feeling in a strange stuck place. Still confident in my manifesting ability, but not exactly knowing what it is I want. I only know I need a purpose. Finding one was easy to do. I want to help women. Why not learn reiki and help them energetically?

For anyone who is unfamiliar with reiki, here is how it's defined: Reiki is a gentle "laying on hands" or hand hovering to channel "universal life force energy" (Rei-Ki) to promote the body's self-healing, balancing physical, mental, and emotional well-being by clearing perceived energy blockages. While considered a complementary therapy for easing pain, anxiety, and promoting relaxation, it's a non-invasive approach, though scientific evidence for its effectiveness is still limited and inconsistent.

By the way, universal life force energy is also called kundalini energy - by Hindus.   

I've had Reiki done in the Boston area (out in Sharon MA). With eyes closed, I could feel the energy sensations moving in the body.  Since my kundalini awakening, I am sensitive to energy changes and shifts. Not just from reiki. I can't explain it easily.  Last night was a good example....the energy was more intense.  I woke up feeling intense vibrations and body aches.  I often get a headache, and the sensation of pressure in my head.  Sometimes, I spend the day basking in a feeling of pure love - this is when the energy affects the emotional state deeply.  Those types of days are amazing, though not common.  Other times, I have to go looking for that feeling through meditation, and while I usually find it, it doesn't last once I get back into mind (today was like this).   I get electrical sensations or burning sensations once in a while.  Different parts of the body.  My right ear burns frequently, and this is accompanied by a warm feeling that descends on my crown.  Some times I get a tingly feeling, kind of electrical in nature.  Sometimes that burning feeling is the right side of my head, and not just my ear.  Sometimes that warm feeling is so hot, the top of my head feels on fire and I sweat profusely.   Can I explain this?  No.  I can't.  That ear burning and heat sensation happens most nights (typically between 9 and 11 pm). The vibrations and body aches happen when I wake up from sleeping.  Just after my awakening, it felt as if I slept in a microwave oven at night.  Surrounded by all this energy.  This still happens to a degree, but it was more intense after the awakening. 

Because I have intense 'life force energy', I think I'll be good at reiki.   Using my energy to help other people.  Yes, I saw the part where it says this is not scientifically verified.  The truth is, the mind is everything.  When we have acupuncture done, it works because we believe it works.  It's a permission slip. It's not different from a placebo.  The mind is doing all the work.  The belief in my energy helping theirs is the permission slip to achieve something with their mind which they could have done without me, had they believed in the power of their mind.  This is how I see it.  I do know we all have energy though and we feel/sense each other's energies.  I also know that we emit our energy outwards.  I am not saying there is no manipulation of energy happening.  I believe there is.  I am saying it mostly works because the belief in it allows the positive outcome to happen. 

In any case, today I took on my own self improvement.   No more waiting around for anything to happen.  First I started caring for my body.  Here's what I did.

1. No more milk (it makes me bloat)...this includes hot cocoa.  Unfortunately, it includes my protein shake which is made with casein.  I've noticed that makes me bloat too. 

2. Taking necessary supplements.  Magnesium to calm my nervous system and to help sleep.  Zinc for my immune system.  D3/K2 for immune system and bone density.  1 Gram of vitamin C for the immune system and for adrenal support.  Methylated B vitamins to calm the nervous system.  Vitamin B12 for energy and sleep. Turmeric to reduce inflammation. 

3.  Started a 25 day Pilates challenge, 25 work outs for 25 minutes each.  One workout a day.  I did this because my lower back was bothering me and it felt unstable.  Working the trunk muscles should help to stabilize it.  I was pleasantly surprised that the work out was for the entire body (arms, legs, butt, lower back, upper back).  A healthier diet plus exercise should make me leaner.  I have not gained a lot of weight, eating sweets.  I gained a lot of weight with bloating though. Sometimes, I look 5 months pregnant. 😉  I can fix this.

4.  Affirmations - I need reminding all the time that I'm safe, protected, loved, whole and abundant. And I'm grateful to be so.  I repeat about 100 phrases over and over to theta wave music with binaural beats, which helps to bury these messages deep into my subconscious.  This insures I'm creating the reality I want because those become my inner beliefs.

5.  Meditation - This is the practice I've most slacked off on.  I used the same theta wave binaural beat music.  There's something magical about it.  To quiet my mind, I had to do some deep breathing.  This too feels magical.  Breathe in for 4 counts, hold for 4 counts, breath out slower...for 7 or 8 counts.  Do this 4 or 5 times, and you will feel an instant calm feeling.  Your mind quiets more easily.  Then listen to the music.  With time, if you can relax, you'll feel a peaceful calm relaxation happen, and you will also start to feel love.  When you feel the love, you are connected to spirit.  You are connecting to your higher self, and that love you feel, is who you truly are.  Should you connect, try asking questions.  If you're clairaudient, you'll get answers.  Or you might just having a knowing, when it comes to answers. 

If you're interested in the theta wave music I use, the link is here:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qQ_W1w9v-2Y

I also got a lot of chores done today.  I decided to schedule things on my calendar to create a routine for myself. One that I can follow. This is a way to care for mind.  Where I feel as if I'm managing me and my life well. 

It's all about caring for

1.  Body

2.  Mind

3.  Spirit

You can't ignore one of these.  You need all 3.

For me, the increased energy that moves through me, which I physically feel, tends to increase cortisol. That's why I feel 100 years old sometimes, when waking up in the morning. I don't look old, I just feel it (stiff joints, sore feet).  It gets bad when the overnight energy is intense.  Going outside to ground myself (walking barefoot on the ground) brings relief, but with 6 inches of snow on the ground, it's not feasible. This leaves grounding mediations which don't seem as effective.  I have to actively try to do things to relax.  I'm never stressed.  I'm usually very calm, but the cortisol is there regardless just from the energy. This is why taking in turmeric and lemon juice are important, because they reduce inflammation.  Inflammation and cortisol are connected. 

Last night I was inspired by a video about what hippies ate when living in communes.  It's very similar to the diets recommended in Buddhism or new age circles.  I might buy the stuff to make homemade granola and I may also try baking my own whole wheat bread.  I'll let you know if I'm successful.  They ate a lot of tofu, lentils, brown rice, fresh fruits and veggies.  They made veggie stews a lot. They foraged for mushrooms. They grew sprouts.  Much of their diet was out of necessity.  The foods were cheap and satiating. And of course, they made wheat bread and granola.  

I cannot improve my life without improving the entirety of me.  It's all one package.  I am the creator of my life and the better I feel and the healthier I am, the better the life that I create.

Thank you for reading.