My first step on finding purpose was to find a place to get certified in reiki. I went there today. They made my neck and upper back feel better. I did not detect much improvement beyond that. I am undeterred though. I don't know where this community will lead me. Maybe somewhere or maybe no where. Sitting still definitely gets me nowhere though. I have to take a step. Just like in the book "the Alchemist". You can go on a journey and wind up someplace you didn't expect, yet the detour has valuable lessons you would not have learned otherwise. That's a great book and I recommend it. It's a short read. So, I embark down this road. We'll see where it goes.
The training starts next Saturday. Hopefully the weather cooperates. Its an hour drive and I have no snow tires.
I'm also ending this blog. I started it because I saw somewhere that blogging could be one way to call attention to the store, but it totally doesn't work 🤣. In the age of so much internet noise, my story is not interesting. Nothing I write is interesting, I think. People are fixated on the really shocking events, like the murder of the woman in Minneapolis by the ICE agent or the way that Trump and Noem are gaslighting the public about it. Or they're fixated on things like the murder of the Reiners. Or some other celebrity famous people stuff. Or maybe like me, they like cat and dog videos online. But nothing here is all that interesting IMO.
So, why end this blog? What does it matter?
I'm worried about how blogging affects my own thoughts. I can't know who reads it. In my mind, I think about ghosts from my past....a tiny audience, so to speak. The tiny audience might not be reading this at all. That's not the point. It doesn't matter if they read it or not. My concern is that I imagine the tiny audience is out there and reading this. This affects me. It diverts my thoughts to those ghosts from the past. The truth is that I need to focus on myself only. My journey is to make myself as happy as I can be. I need to be living my life with purpose. I expect to be in a better financial position. I need to have greater fulfillment. Whether I get a regular job or my investment money comes through and I wind up helping women with my time, it almost doesn't matter what it is I do. It only matters if I'm happy with what I'm doing. It only matters if my life is flowing well. It only matters if I'm in a loving state and helping others. I am learning to refine the art of manifestation. It's important I learn to do this without the pitfalls of attachment or fear. I need to learn to create from the moment. This is where my focus needs to be.
I can't afford to be thinking of the past. Yet this blog has me concerned about the tiny audience, which may or may not be out there. That diverts my focus.
This goes back to deleting some posts because I worried about control. I can't control anything. I have to let the universe be in charge.
So, I might not post again. Or if I do, it will be something like remembering mom.
It's been nice putting thoughts out into the universe, but I have to be about self care and then care for others.
For anyone who is on a spiritual path....if you stumble on this....feel free to reach out to me on LinkedIn. I'm always happy to help anyone who's had a spiritual awakening, especially a kundalini awakening. My link is below, just DM me and mention this blog. I don't respond to DMs typically, but if you mention this blog, I absolutely will reply. LinkedIn is a weird place. It's for professional networking, but people think if you LinkIn with them, it means you're besties and they want to engage in small talk through DMs. Some of the men are creepy this way. So, definitely, mention this blog.
www.linkedin.com/in/patricia-lowden-52b48611
Thank you for reading. And best of luck with your journey.
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