Putting myself out there

 Christmas was quiet.  Just me and my cats.  I enjoyed watching them play with their new catnip toys which they enjoyed.   I've never spent Christmas by myself before. It wasn't bad. Very relaxing. I cooked myself some good food. Chatted with my daughter in Costa Rica.  

Today, I went skiing for the second time in a week.  The first time, it was so much effort putting the boots on.  It always feels like I'm getting ready to walk on the moon.  Carrying the skis and poles onto the slopes felt like real work.  Today, it was not so tiring.  I'm pretty good at the rope toe.  I stayed a short while, but skied a little better on the bunny slope.  I am easing into it until my muscles and balance are stronger.  I want to be confident before graduating to the slope with the T bar.

I sat in silence more today and I also did yoga.  I was in presence today for a time and it felt very good. Then I get distracted by useless thoughts, though I ought not judge those thoughts or those moments. Just let them pass.  

A friend of mine pointed out a Director position for analytical development.  I will apply.  It looked like managing a CRO and CMO and not overseeing a team.  Already this is a bad sign to me, because it says they don't know what they're doing.  There should always be a process and analytical team (even if only a few people) to do some PD (process development) and AD (analytical development) work and they then oversee a CMOs manufacturing and QC teams. I've seen companies, time and again, not hire a really good CMC person and they think the CMO can do all the AD and PD experimental work.  This never works out well.  Never.  

I've been weighing going back into the lab and I think there's simple pleasures in AD lab work.  I'm not sure I'd be happy just having meetings and taking care of documentation.

Ideally, I'd get my store to work and now is the time to upload the real photos I took of my products and get my products reviewed by those who've seen them.  And to create some new ones.  Pinterest is the place to drive traffic to my store. The sooner I start on this, the better.  I need to up my game here, if I want to stay in VT.  And I'm feeling so good between my heart and mind.  In manifestation terms, this is the sweet spot. 

If I had an income in VT, would I still leave VT for Boston to go back to work in industry.?  The answer is no.  If I could afford to buy the townhouse I'm in, I'd happily stay right here.  For that to happen, Intellia would need to be bought sooner rather than later.  It's possible. It would take a miracle, but miracles can happen.  IMO, Intellia would not allow itself to be sold below $50 ($40 at the bare minimum)...I prefer $50 LOL.  I could afford to stay here at that price. If I bought it for cash ($200 to 250k), then cost to own is $7500 (club fee) + $4k (property tax) + $2500 (HOA)= $14k per year or $~1200/mo, not including utilities. That would raise it by $500 (it's cheaper in summer but more expensive in winter but $500 would be average). I'd need $21000 per year, which I could get off of investments.  Probably $3600 for total expenses. Health insurance would be my biggest concern but I have time.  

Sorry for the details.  If I achieve enough quietness for my mind, solutions will become apparent. Should I work in a lab role?  Or create something different?  Can I manifest some cash ? Can I manifest an income? I'm pretty sure there's a consulting role coming towards me, but that would not be sufficient for me to stay in VT.  I suppose I can try for an AD role that is remote.  These do exist. Let's see what comes my way.  It would be nice if Intellia would be bought.  The clinical hold has to be lifted first.  There needs to be a protocol adjustment implemented, I feel certain.  There needs to be no stage 2 or 3 liver events in the next 200 dosed patients.  I don't see Regeneron buying Intellia. They're very stingy.  Intellia tends to be greedy. It's not for me to worry about though.  The universe will find the best outcome. 

So how am I putting myself out there....literally getting outside to enjoy the outdoors and try to stay somewhat fit. Doing more for the store.  Applying for appropriate jobs.  These are the 3 ways I'm putting myself out there. 

Okay, so I will eat and then work on my store.  I'll create some products and some Pins on Pinterest and see where it goes. 

Thank you for reading!